Avy

Lost  deep in thoughts last night,

I thought about my past,

My past contained my dear friend Avy.

And I write this poem for the memories to last.

We had a good laugh always, Eating or drinking our way to glory,

We spoke on different levels and on different planes.

We spoke of everything that could come to our stupid little brains.

We knew each other so well.

We could read each others mind without a word to tell.

I cherish his friendship, I promise that I shall stand.

We might be worlds apart, but I will not let go off your hand.

I have held it tight,as tight as I can hold.

Holding on to your memories is like holding on to priceless  gold.

Can't change the time gone by, Can't change what just flies,

But I can hold on and preserve what I have, A true friend to me whose memories will last.

I feel a dagger in my heart, Dagger that says I shall never see you ever again,

Its pierced deep in my heart, Pierced so firm I can hardly get a start.

But if thats what Life has to offer, So be it.

I will never let your memories fade away.

I shall never replace your position in my heart.

Friends forever even after being worlds apart.

Dried Tears

My tears have dried;

For all the pain inside me I cried.

My fears are gone,

Like my faith in love and life.

My smile has faded ;

With all the lies that life has to invade with.

My shoulders have become stronger,

But I cant hold on no longer.

I have lost myself somewhere,

Somewhere deep inside me,

So deep inside I cant look for me,

I fear to see myself in the mirror.

Finding a reason everyday,

To live and carry on in this Unforgiving world.

Hope has died and faith has crumbled.

So uncertain about myself now.

I might be strong outside,

But I am crippled inside.

Learnt some good lessons in life.

Learnt them good and learnt them hard.

I admitted my mistakes;

I asked for forgiveness.

Yet I lost those who were dear to me.

Whoa was me !!!

I will depart from this life !!

Leaving behind my words,

Leaving behind my fears,

I have forgiven those who have hurted me.

Those who left a hole in my heart.

Who left a dagger crisped inside me.

And just turned around smiling as if nothing went wrong.