I've become Numb again.

I've become Numb again,
Cant feel love again.
Pain within has been so long,
Feeling anything else feels like sin again.

I've become Numb again,
Shallow and Dark is whats inside me,
Sinking to bottom in my ocean of tears,
Cant find land to live again.

I've become Numb again,
Tears rolling down my cheeks again.
The salty taste tells me how,
Lonely I have become again

I've become Numb again,
Loosing sense and feel again.
Water and wine taste the same,
Cant afford to be more of a waste than I already am again.

I've become Numb again,
Cant feel love again,
Cant feel anything but pain again.
I cant be me again :(

THIS IS WHAT I HAVE ADOPTED AS MY MANTRA

NOTE : I haven't written this but adopted it from somewhere and am sharing it with you all cause I love it and want you to know about the same


I know what I want and what I don't want.
I know I am not perfect and that I make mistakes. But I believe that my happiness keeps me sweet, my trials keep me strong, my sorrows keep me human, my failures keep me humble, my success keeps me glowing, and God keeps me going. Everything is worth it after all.

Nothing lasts forever. So live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, and avoid the bullshit.
But never, EVER, regret. Because at one point, everything you did, was exactly what you wanted.
Life is too short. Grugdes are a waste of perfect hapiness. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should and let go of what you can't change. LOVE deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances, give everything and have no regrets! Life is too short to be unhappy. You have to take good with the bad, smile when you're sad.
Love what you got and always remember what you had. Always forgive, never forget. Learn from your mistakes, but never regret. People change and things go wrong but always remember LIFE GOES ON!

Good Bye Cruel Cruel World

These are my thoughts and is to direct to a lot of people who upset me and still be a stranger to the fact that I am hurt.To all those mates who stabbed my back and left the dagger inside me, for those who betrayed my trust, for those whom I called my beloved friends.All I every expected was friendship and you turned it into a bloody game of life.You fucked off from my life and stay fucked off but this is to tell you how I felt when you left me there gasping for a friend

Here I go again, All by myself.
Not a stranger insight nor a friend at my side.
Just cause I hide my tears it doesn't mean I don't feel pain,
Just cause I laugh every time in life it doesn't mean I am happy.
Just cause I stay by your side it doesn't mean I ain't feeling lonely.
Just cause you all crowd around me it doesn't mean I feel complete.
Just cause I want you to be happy I hurt myself.
Just cause I fake everything on my face it doesn't mean I will keep going on.
Just cause I talk about the future it doesn't mean I will live to tell.
Tired of hiding it all from everyone.
Tired of being like this.
Dying day by day in pieces and crumbs.
Wounded so much that I cant carry on any more.
Just want to end it now.
Want to go the other side of this world,
Go beyond everyones reach.Be Immortal, Be free.
But I know I still wont live in peace.
I will be above everyone but I will leave behind my broken crumbs of my heart and dreams behind.
I wont find peace in either world's.
Tasting death everyday in my tears,
Tasting defeat in every pain,
Holding my broken dreams and my heart in my hands, waiting to for them to fall together again.
Growing in pain,Growing in jealousy,
This pain is like a tumor,it has to go,
If it means it has to end with me then be so.

AND THE PAIN RETURNS !!!!

As I watch my pain return.
Tearing every life in me....
I promise I wont shed a tear...
To the empty hearted vessel you be


I will sail this ocean of tears,
without shedding any of my own,
I will sail till eternity comes,
Or till the death sees the best of me.


Salted hands and a watery grave,
Is only what dwells in me,
Will I ever sail the ocean blue,
Or will it always be in me.


Like a drop of water that falls
And makes the mighty ocean blue,
Same be the blood I shed and drop,
And yet you dont have a clue.


Loved you beyond life and death,
.....Death no longer brings fear to me.
And I loved you the best.
......Now its only the death will see the best of me.