Good Bye Cruel Cruel World

These are my thoughts and is to direct to a lot of people who upset me and still be a stranger to the fact that I am hurt.To all those mates who stabbed my back and left the dagger inside me, for those who betrayed my trust, for those whom I called my beloved friends.All I every expected was friendship and you turned it into a bloody game of life.You fucked off from my life and stay fucked off but this is to tell you how I felt when you left me there gasping for a friend

Here I go again, All by myself.
Not a stranger insight nor a friend at my side.
Just cause I hide my tears it doesn't mean I don't feel pain,
Just cause I laugh every time in life it doesn't mean I am happy.
Just cause I stay by your side it doesn't mean I ain't feeling lonely.
Just cause you all crowd around me it doesn't mean I feel complete.
Just cause I want you to be happy I hurt myself.
Just cause I fake everything on my face it doesn't mean I will keep going on.
Just cause I talk about the future it doesn't mean I will live to tell.
Tired of hiding it all from everyone.
Tired of being like this.
Dying day by day in pieces and crumbs.
Wounded so much that I cant carry on any more.
Just want to end it now.
Want to go the other side of this world,
Go beyond everyones reach.Be Immortal, Be free.
But I know I still wont live in peace.
I will be above everyone but I will leave behind my broken crumbs of my heart and dreams behind.
I wont find peace in either world's.
Tasting death everyday in my tears,
Tasting defeat in every pain,
Holding my broken dreams and my heart in my hands, waiting to for them to fall together again.
Growing in pain,Growing in jealousy,
This pain is like a tumor,it has to go,
If it means it has to end with me then be so.